always thinking of you.

I know that you aren't there, but where you rest is a peaceful place. Your grave may bring sorrow, but it also brings comfort. I can't seem to function anymore without you. I'm so out of tune with this world, I'm so frazzled, I don't know what to do. I wish I could talk to you, I wish I could hug you, I wish I could hear your beautiful voice and see your cheerful face in a few days, but I cannot. I never thought it would be this hard, but I never thought it would be easy either.

I think about you everyday, all the time, you're always on my mind. I can't imagine living without you but somehow I am. I can't imagine this world without you because I know you're still here. Somehow, in some way, you are still here. Your beauty lives on, you love never fails, your compassion is unending. You're a saint in my eyes, you truly are the epitome of a wonderful life. You never once questioned God, you never once spoke evil of others, you constantly sought forgiveness, and you never ever failed to share your love, happiness, and joy with the rest of the world. It pains me to think I'll never hear your voice or you little chuckle for the rest of my time here on earth. It hurts to know that I'll never share some of life's biggest milestones with you. I will never forget you Grams. never. You're the kind of person who can never be erased from memory. You've touched so many lives and brightened so many days it's almost unreal. But you were real, and you are real. You are an incredible woman, an inspiration, and I will do my best to relive the happy and not be overwhelmed with the sad.

confusion?

I fell behind, I was caught up, I was too engaged yet too far astray.

the best things in life aren't things at all.

cherish the moment, live for today, but don't let tomorrow seem too far away.

flawed. I'm flawed, we're all flawed. people screw up, I know I do. sometimes, people become angry for no apparent reason, and sometimes that reason is unknown to everyone else in the world except that one person. we can never truly and fully understand another person unless we can learn to fully understand ourselves. with that understanding, we must learn to accept ourselves before we can give our heart or any part of us to another person. if we dive in too quickly or fall too hard to fast, we lose part of ourselves in the process. instead of sharing we are missing something, instead of understanding we are constantly frazzled and confused, instead of having situations play out the way we believe they should, we are left alone and confused, searching for answers. compromise is the last thing on out minds because we are too concerned with ourselves and why we are hurting, but we fail to see or acknowledge that someone else is hurting too. in order to be one, two people have to have both self-acceptance and self-understanding. only then will communication between the two be effective.