Things have a way of working out. Things will get better, things do get better. Eventually, if you give them time and patience, things fall into place.

3 months today.

I can't believe it's only been three months. It feels like so much longer. I miss you so much, Grams. Words cannot describe your beauty, they cannot express my sadness, they do not even begin to explain how much everyone truly  misses you. You are the most beautiful woman I've ever met and ever will meet. I am absolutely, 100% certain that I will never meet another soul quite like your own. Nobody else has your patience, compassion, and understanding. I just miss you Grams, so much. I love you.

new beginnings.

Here's to Forgiveness Sunday & the start of Lent.

I'm starting over, although I know I can't exactly do that until the end of this year, I'm doing what I can for the meantime. This new beginning is a new journey, it's a fresh start for all. I am going to do everything in my power to avoid negative feelings, I know it might be difficult and it might be inconvenient, but I know it's the only way to be happy. I'm really glad you've figured things out and have everything just the way you like it, but just because something works for you, doesn't mean it works for everyone else. I'm going to put the past in the past and start over. Starting over means letting go, and I'm letting go of what might have been there and what had potential to exist. It's over and done. We are strangers who live together. It's okay though, I've come to accept the fact that this is the way things are now, and I promise once this year ends, you'll never have to see me again. I'm sorry it has to be this way, but I truly believe this is the only way to move on. I'm just not sure I can stand reliving all that went wrong in order to make things right. I think too much damage has been done at this point, I'm sorry. Please forgive me for what I have done to upset you, but trust me when I say I won't be a bother anymore. I don't mean this in a way to seek guilt, sympathy, or apologies. I truly mean it when I say I'm done, and in a few short months, we will both be problem-free.

appreciate your loved ones before they're gone.

Tonight, we are young...

"So let's set the world on fire, we can burn brighter than the sun."

We only live once, we're only young once. We only have one shot at this life, only one chance to make things right.

Stand up for what you believe, tell people how you feel, don't keep things in. Be honest, be upfront, be beautiful, be you.

I miss you.

I miss you so much grams. I wish you were here, I wish I could hear your voice, I wish I could see your face in something more than a picture. I love and miss you so much grams. I am so happy you're in a better place, but I just miss you. I need you grams. Please be with me grams, give me your strength, give me your love, give me your compassion, give me your understanding. I love you grams, so much. I know you're smiling down on me. Happy birthday.

Look forward, not back. Think about what can be done, not why something did not happen. Be concerned not with others, but yourself. Think about what you can do to better your own situation, not what others have done to hinder it. Things happen for reasons we are unaware of. Everything has a way of working out. Faith, trust, love, and strength through God can solve any problem.

Happy Birthday.

Happy Birthday to the world’s most beautiful woman. I only wish I had the opportunity to celebrate it with you. I know that this is the first birthday for you, in quite some time, that you are able to celebrate pain-free and in a place of peace. I know it’s been almost three months now, but I remember everything like it was yesterday. I miss you grams, I have trouble picturing my future and the ups and down it holds without having you by my side. I wish you could be here with me when I graduate college, when I start my first job, when I walk down the aisle, when I have my first child, when I take another step forward in my life. I really wish I could share it with you. You were always ecstatic to hear about my day or what I had to say no matter how insignificant it may have been. Two years ago, my sisters and I wrote you letters for your birthday. I keep mine in my wallet now, I was so surprised you kept them, considering I hadn’t remembered even writing my own. Every little thing mattered so much to you. The reason you were able to stay positive despite the circumstances is because you only saw the beauty in life. You only saw everything wonderful, you were not phased by the little things, you were not upset by life’s minor detours. You constantly proved to me that happiness can overcome all feelings of anger if that happiness is supported with love. The love you’ve shown for every person you were in contact with is incredible. I’m still in awe with your patience, compassion, and infinite understanding. Grandma, I love you. Happy birthday to you, I’m so happy that you are in a place of comfort and peace, though I will always hold a bit of sadness that you cannot be here with me.

I'd love for you to make me wonder...

... where it's going.

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you? Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?
...Finding someone else you can't get enough of, someone who wants to be with you too...


Even if we're sure, we're never really be certain of what the future holds for us. I'm so excited to embark on this journey with you. I'm so happy to have found you and to know that you feel as strongly about me as I feel about you. Although we fight, it makes us stronger, I know that whatever the future holds, I will always have you with me to help me through it, because no matter how much we argue or how I angry I am with you, not being with you would be far too painful to endure over a few fights. I'm not sure what will happen to us, but I know that whatever does, we are able to embrace the future together.